Happy New Year (the puke free version)!

Well Its 2008. I have no idea why but I think its going to be a great year for me. I said the same thing at the beginning of 2007. I remember having high hopes that Id be able to conquer many things that I had been dealing with and that I was finally ready to let go of. Man I had a fucking rough year! It was not the joyous blissful experience that I was hoping for, but what it lacked in comfort it more than made up for in productivity. I made some tremendous changes to my life in various ways all throughout 2007 to where my life now is very different than it was just one year ago. I wasnt always happy, though there were some moments for sure, but I was very often busy, and thats something I can not take for granted! I have always been a lazy asshole, at least in 2007 I was just an asshole. I guess I was lazy in certain regards, certain classes still not passed that needed to be completed, but where it really counted I put in the time, and the fruits of my labor are just about ready to be harvested. So I say that 2008 will be a great year, I dont know if that means Ill be happier and less stressed out, though I hope this will be the case, I just have that feeling that I had at the beginning of last year. The feeling of opportunity and potential.

So how did I bring in this super productive responsible year for myself? By drinking moderately and talking about Illuminati while watching Tenacious D pick of destiny and listening to my friends yell at George for knocking over an expensive Hooka that they were using. It was fun! It was tame! Not really my style at all! Normally I go crazy and get super drunk at some crazy event, or at least a very large party. Or, I hang out at my house with my family very low key, have like a beer, smoke some weed, play some games, than pass out. That is usually my nature. All or nothing. Extreme to the end. Either I party hard, or I dont party at all. Its just my mood. Obviously Ive had the good fortune of being at least some what responsible while partying because I wouldnt be here right now if I had truly been as extreme as I wanted to be. I tried to arrange rides so I wouldnt have to drive, I didnt mix too much of this with too much of that so I wouldnt end up in a hospital, but overall when I party I tend to indulge in a manner that most would consider to be excessive. Not in 2007 though. Generally throughout the whole year I didnt party hard at all and when I did it still wasnt "hard" because what I consumed was not even half of what I would have just a year before. It seems this held true for New Years. I went to Denys' house and chilled with about 8 people. Very small scene, just a few folks I know well, we probablly smoked 2 bowls all night. Everyone had a few drinks, I had one, every had a few beers, I had like 2 maybe 3. I developed a good buzz, I was talking with my friends, no one was really drunk, no one threw up, George knocked something down but that was just clumsiness that he could be associated with when he is completely sober. It was just another night. I was a bit disappointed until it was time for me to drive home. At around 3 am I just felt I was done. I stood up, said good bye, got in my car and drove home. I was slightly buzzed I guess but I wasnt concerned the way I would have been just a year ago, I didnt have to ask myself deep serious questions like should I be driving or whether or not I want to just crash in my car. I was in absolute control of all my options. I could have stayed, Denys house would have been open all day today for company, but I just wanted to go home and I did so. As I was driving I was bumping my Jay-Z (still in my car Ron) and driving somewhat fast but responsible, laughing at the other cars that were swerving very slowly towards driveway destinations (I guess Im not the only one who parties close to home). It hit me in a flash how weird it felt to be the guy who is not driving fucked up at 3 am on New Years day. And you know what? I kind of liked the feeling. I parked, thought about my night, the lack of excitement but also the lack of incident, and thought I could go for that again next year. I guess I really am changing. I think 2007 really was a great year for me. Otherwise I would have had a whole different perspective and attitude about last night. Now I can just be happy for what I got. I think 2008 is going to be an even better year for me! I hope its a better year for all of us.